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Rainy Evening through my window

May 31, 2016

As I sit near the window,
I see flashes of lightening across the murky sky...
Someone from heaven is taking pictures of me?

Light drizzle permeates the silence in a rhythm
In it's charm and tranquility rises a fear hidden
what if  the lightening lands on me?

i feel vulnerable...scared
i feel humble.....small

the rain stops...
the flashes wane...
and i can't hear any thunder anymore, 
only the soothing rain

I keep looking through the window...
at the cars parked on the wet and deserted space below...
They don't move an inch... they seem the least bothered of all
Beneath the yellow lamps on the wall

A man in his cycle seems lost...
manages to cut his way against the wind and shower

A pizza delivery boy revs his scooter...

The Lightening seems to have no effect whatsoever...

But as it continues....  i can't help but think
in this lap of  ignorance is bliss... isn't it ?

we remain free from worry... anxiety... pain
the lightning has stopped now... so has the rain

through a crack in the cloud... shines the last golden ray
into the womb of darkness slips one more day...

 

My type of weekend

May 28, 2016

The roads here are empty. The sun is bright but there is no desire to go out of home. 

Its weekend and so I like to stay at home. 

The previous weekend - I had gone to my friend's house. He asked me - 'should we go to Berlin next weekend...."

i answered - " what's there to see in Berlin... and even if there's anything to see... i simply don't feel like going anywhere..."

He asked - "why?"

"well, " i answered rather hesitantly, " don't you feel it is rather hectic to rise from bed early and then run to this place and then finish your lunch faast in a hotel and then again run for the next destination and so on...Somehow i feel that this robs me off my weekend. it means i am having to work and toil hard like the weekdays... on the contrary my weekends should be slow and lazy - sleep till 10 am.... eat something and then again sleep till noon. get up and make some good food - finish lunch and start a new nextflix series..... that's my take on spending weekend...."

they both listened quietly and then laughed... it seemed they liked the ideaa in some corner of their mind....

My wife gave a look that said - "this man is not going to change! My God"

today as i write this - on another lazy saturday - suddenly i realized that my friend would be in Berlin - so i fb messaged him - dear friend - are you in Berlin

After some time i got the reply - "No we are at home only."

Did i influence him?

I hope not.

Betfred World Championship 2016... an update

April 26, 2016

As i write this, the quarter final match between kyren wilson vs mark selby, 1st session just finished... selby is leading by 6 -2 

the previous match that wilson played, he  was leading mark allen by 7-0.  And in this match he was trailing 6-0 

Sports can be such great leveller isn't it???... all the more reasons to remain humble and remain focussed. bcoz you never know....

not only sports but in life... it's always better to not celebrate too early and remain cautious even though the going is easy and the ride is smooth because you never know when it gets bumpy

in the other match between ronny sullivan vs barry hawkins, barry hawkins somehow managed to clinch victory just at the right moment and riding a little bit on luck as well. in this match, in every session barry was successful in taking lead up until the las few frames when Ronny showed his magic to level the game at 12-12. the decider was a cracker of a match and Hawkins capitalised on an unlucky potting of the cue ball by Rocket. 

Ronnie was slightly careless in his defensive and tactical games... he gave a few easy opportunities and they were nicely capitalized by Barry who seemed more hungry to win of the two... Sometimes it's the hunger that decides which way fate is going to swing... .some people just seem slightly more hungry than the other... remember it's  anyway a neck and neck contention and only a marginal advantage is all that is needed to get over the line...

at this point Ding is also playing great snooker and the world championship is becoming all the more exciting as the quarter final rounds are underway... Remember the big shots are all gone now - the likes of Ronnie, Murphy, Trump, Bingham are all out.. 

If i have to put my money on any player now - it would be Selby... it's a great opportunity for him to win this title! However, as we already have seen - anything can happen

daredevil - dialogues that can inspire

April 26, 2016

emotion can turn the most circumspect of men careless.

one cannot be both saviour and oppressor, light and shadow; one has to be sacrificed for the other... choose and choose wisely... or others shall choose for you

how do you do this? one foot in-front of the other like everybody else...

wind blows the hardest the closer you get to the mountain top

Gems from Garbage

April 3, 2016

I was having a nice time with my friend... we were roaming around Liluah... place where i lived my childhood... i was roaming here and there...and at the back of my mind i knew that i had the flight-tickets to Amsterdam... Abu-Dhabi as layover

It was getting chaotic and very crowded and we managed to board the buses to airport, he and me on different buses... .my luggage remained in the other bus and i was struggling to get my thoughts in order about the luggage and my friend and my flight departure time - all kind of got mixed into a hazy confused soup as i continued my journey towards the airport....

Reached airport - scratched my head and thought how to get my luggage as the crowd continued to grow. I managed to go to the ticket counter and inquired about my flight. I got a shock...  when i got to know that flight had already departed at 09:15 am...

"What time is it now," a question emerged in mind and I got a reply from within that it was around 2 pm... how could i miss the flight by such big a margin??

May be i was so much busy enjoying with my friend that i somehow missed to pay attention to the details of my flight and that caused this bitter situation... i cursed myself softly in my mind as i refocused on the person at counter, who was still looking at me.

I asked him about any other tickets i could book...

He answered, "yes of course!"

I replied, "for today?"

He replied, "No flights for today, you have to book for tomorrow."

I didn't know what to say and looked blank and confused.

He sensed my helplessness and added, "why don't you go to Goa and spend the night today? Enjoy, dance and eat and make merry?"

I uttered in my mind, "Goa????!!!!!!!!!!!#$^%****&^^^, " and continued to present that blank look while trying to figure out why the man was suggesting me Goa...

My silent reaction was the best i could do to convey my inner surprise... He returned an awkward smile which was too tough to decipher...

I came out of the counter to get rid of the rather weird person with whom i had no intention to prolong the interaction and tried to figure out a way i could get back my bags... how dear they are to me... those are my personal diaries where i write all things - financial calculations, goals, my weight and so on.... i grew desperate to collect my bags

Someone showed where  my bags were - in an upward direction towards some yellow structure... i was confused and again scratched my head...

I saw hazy crowd around, people drinking tea, all kind of noises and then my memory becomes hazier.

I start walking and then i don't want to go back home - how to explain that i lost my flight due to my carelessness that cost me such a big amount of money... how to show my face... i needed something to hide my face, myself..... so i wanted some other place to go and spend the night before i could board the next flight.

I started walking with the bitter feeling of my stupidity...

I woke up

Realized it was a dream. Thank God it was!!!!!

I was relieved that it was a dream and that i hadn't lost anything - my diaries intact - No money lost... no time lost... 

NIGHTMARE!

a forgetful one... 

i wanted to forget it then and there, but.......

there was a SECOND THOUGHT...

Anyways i lived the experience - as i gathered those real droplets of sweat over my forehead. The experience is real; the dream might have been false.

so why forget it without picking up the valuable lessons from the dream... that's a good example of collecting gems from garbage.

Isn't it wise to learn lessons from imaginary dreams than from real incidents???

Let me remain positive

March 30, 2016

Let me remain positive...

what a noble thought! isn't it.

I am having this beautiful positive feeling and emotions inside me.

Let me remain positive........................

Netherlands - Day 1088 (Beautiful Den Hag and Scheveningen Beach)

March 11, 2016

Beautiful Den Hag and Scheveningen Beach

Early morning I left for collecting Passport from VLC in Den Haag. Took the opportunity to roam around the city and enjoyed the fresh air on Scheveningen Beach. Lovely afternoon, warm sun and there was not much wind - this made a perfect set up to walk around the city of Den Haag. 

Around 4:50 pm i returned VLC and took my renewed Passport along with the old one. 

Very silent beach, the waves don't roar like they do in Puri Beach or the Goa Beaches... here if you move away a few meteres away, you can't hear the sounds of the waves... that's a let down for sure... but the sand is very good - powdery and clean... there are lots of shells - which enhance the beauty of the beach... 

it's cold most of the time and you are bound to be tempted to enter some of the cafes near the beach to escape from the cool breeze. However today there wasn't much breeze and we (my friend Raghav and me) spent a lot of time lying on the beach with our face towards the sun. Awesome feeling. 

Drive from Bangalore to Bhubaneswar

February 15, 2016

I never quite got time to blog about this epic journey... I had one companion - Uttam Da... who helped me stay awake during tiresome phases of this journey with his humor, stories and casual narrations about different topic. We had a fabulous journey spanning 3 days and 2 nights. We stayed in 2 hotels for night-stay during this journey... so instead of wasting much time let me share the pictures and vivid description of these 3 days...

Day - 1 (13-Feb-2016); odometer reading - 43945km... started journey at 11:46am

We couldn't start early because i needed to change the engine oil. The concorde tata Motors Service-person was kind enough to allow my vehicle sneak past the long queue of saturday vehichles waiting for servicing, and my vehicle was all ready for the long journey... around 11:30 pm we headed straight towards Tirupati... the road was very badly congested - if you are living in Bangalore you would know what i mean... it was a herculean task entailing tons of patience to finally get past the heavy traffic in Bangalore...and once we crossed the city - after some 70-80 kms... we breathed in sighs of relief and I was happy to crank the engine past 80 km per hour without having to touch the brakes... 

beautiful road

After some time we started feeling hungry and were lucky to find a restaurant out of nowhere.

here we were pampered with 2 delicious south indian meals by the overly-generous restaurant staff... 

the journey continued...

1.26 pm 2.21 pm

We were going good ... excited and thrilled - not knowing how this whole thing would turn out to be... but evening was settling in and we wondered how much we could we continue... Vizag was in our mind... however that goal seemed too far and our tiresome bodies yearned for some badly needed rest. We however continued... 

Finally decided to park at Nellore - in some hotel - so we took the left turn from National Highway that took us inside Nellore... After a couple of attempts we finally found a vacant room in hotel Anurag... not much - 2000 Rs for one night - we settled without much bargain... It was almost 10 pm and getting 2 plates of food seemed remote - when a skinny dark boy came to our rescue - he promised us the highest quality of Biryani for only 200 rs. We settled for only 1 plate and decided to share the food between us. The biryani was a tad too oily  - but we were hungry as well... so we gulped in fast and the taste was not so bad actually... we were thankful that we diddn't have to sleep empty-stomach.

Day2 - (14 feb 2016) odometer reading - 44349 km

We got up early - had a very sound sleep - felt refreshed... and went for a stroll to know the place - vrc center in nellore. 

This place didn't look very clean

 

It was not possible to find a good place to have breakfast... after buying 2 bottles of bisleri we came back to the restarurant and were quite surprised to discover that first floor had complimentary breakfast. Didn't have the slightest hint about it. Nice and delicious Idly + Vada. as my mobile gps was getting offline too often, i recharged with a roaming pack - and this took quite sometime and so we were late to leave the hotel.

Day 2 journey started around 11am in the morning. Odometer reading - 44349 km  and we were soon speeding away at 80plus km/hr down the highway road towards Vishakhapatanam.  

Afternoon time and we were hungry again... this time we weren't so lucky. Lunch wasn't so good and we were feeling sick... may be due to stomach disorder...

We took a few breaks - had tender coconut water and stretched to get some blood flow through our tired veins... and then resumed our journey... miles to go before we could sleep.......

We decided to stay overnight at hotel river bay - which turned out to be an excellent decision. because not only the hotel was nice but also the food was finger-licking-delicious. 

We slept like logs of wood....

Day3 - (15 feb 2016); odometer - 44800 km; started journey at 9:08 am

we woke up around 7 am, quickly freshened up and then had a quick look around the hotel. Oh my God, it was such a lovely place with the mighty and gorgeous river Godavari just infront of the hotel. a picture can depict the beauty of this place here better than words.... so here we go - 

We finished the complimentary breakfast - which was really awesome... and then began our journey - quite early this time - sharp at 9:15 am. this allowed us to cover quite a large distance before we paused for lunch.

Afternoon and we were really hungry and kept looking for a hotel but without any luck. Finally we found one... and this time we were lucky.  food good - just like the 1st day.  Or may be even better. South Indian meals - 2 plates. Completely satisfied and gave away a 50 Rs. tip... 

After covering 183 km we saw tender coconuts at road side and decided to take a break.

 

As we continued our journey the highway became really good... and we were able to maintain a speed of 100+ km /h for a long period of time.

We covered a lot of distance in this good-road-stretch and provided us confidence to complete the whole journey on the third day itself. It was a long long journey - with no signs of the destination within reach - we kept going and we just continued endlessly.... 

When we reached Bhubaneswar it was mid-night 12:00 am. The GPS brought us right at the gate of the house. Odometer reading - 45500 km.

We freshened up by sprinkling water into our tired eyes and quickly sat for dinner... while explaining our daredevil adventure to folks... 

It was a nice experience... though at times my partner and myself were under stress - we wondered quite a few times - what was the need to travel such a long distance in a car... but then - there were bright sides as well... we saw lot of new places - escpecially the Gorgeous Godavari River in Rajahmundry... villages, farm lands, villagers farming, good scenery on both sides of the road and so many things. 

Nevertheless, it's something we will cherish for a long time.

 

Interested in reading other car-travel-blogs? well here are the links... Please share and like these on facebook if you find them interesting... 

http://dipeshmajumdar.com/entries/travel-and-events/driving-through-black-forest

http://dipeshmajumdar.com/entries/travel-and-events/drive-from-bangalore-to-goa

http://dipeshmajumdar.com/entries/travel-and-events/drive-from-bangalore-to-kanyakumari

Australian open 2016 Women's Final - Kerber steals the show, wins heart and trophy

January 31, 2016

It was Kerber who won the match. No one had believed I am sure... while I was watching the game - I felt Serena will finally pull off... but the tenacity of the German Lady and her never-say-die attitude finally helped her clinch the title.

What we learned from the game?

Okay, first the final was awesome to watch - it was a very hard fought battle in which fortunes kept turning one side to the other... you really enjoy such balanced games rather than a boring one sided affair - in which one routs the other in straight sets...

Having said that, there was much to learn from this gruesome battle between two of the finest players... let me start with Serena first...

Well Serena has won so many grand slams and it's so easy on her part to be a little contented and relaxed sometime and thereby allowing the opponent to register an easy win; but  that's never the case with Serena... see carries herself in the court in a way that she CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT in the wildest wildest wildest of her dreams think of anything less than a victory. A defeat is simply no option for Serena... so at times when she loses the points she goes through an emotional turmoil and agony inside her - that's so very apparent for everyone to see... and it seems she will almost break down emotionally now... but she brings back her composure and again starts fighting with increased intensity... it's so rare to find a fighter like Serena, especially when she has already won so many grand slams... it seems she comes to the court with a vengeance - doesn't matter who the opponent is... it seems it's a matter of life and death in the literal sense - to her... it's fighting spirit in the most extreme form that you can ever experience in players... My hats off to Serena's fighting spirit. And it's because of this insatiable hunger she possesses - it's this quality of hers that has enabled her to bag so many titles... Its the best attitude a player can have - it's an attitude to win and settle for no less....

When the desire to win is so burning, one ends up winning in most of the occasions...

However this wasn't to be the case in the Women's Australian open final... the script had a twist. Even though Serena Williams was successful in clawing back in to the games many a times, after having gone down by quite a noteworthy margin... Kerber managed to garner inspiration from somewhere to keep the pressure on by just the right amount to unsettle her opponent. Again and again she kept hitting those magical shots, some unexpected drop shots where the ball just loops in lazily infront of the net - catching Serena by surprise, and she successfully hit some good passing shots as well and the whole package proved to hot to handle by Serena finally. Serana was always playing catch up game after trailing at crucial stages and finally she failed to catch up...

Kerber had a conviction in her body language that she could do it ... she was not intimidated by Serena by no means.. she was simply focussing on her game and attempting to take it to higher and higher levels... and finally that paid off...

In the deciding set when Kerber was leading by 2-0  and finally Serena plugged that gap and the score became 2-2, it seemed Serena would now be successful in getting her nose in front... but that was not the case to be... Credit has to be given to Kerber... because at this stage of the game she could have easily lost her hope, particularly when Serena was playing very hard and accurate tennis. However Kerber didn't break down and kept her focus and finally succeeded in creating a lead once more. What is noteworthy is also Kerber's tenacity in not willing to lose a point easily, she would simply make sure to return a ball no matter how much she had to run or stretch... and while Serena would have fancied a point she would be surprised to see the ball come back to her... 

Serena finally succumbed to the extreme pressure her opponent created and maintained.

Can you hear your conscience's whispers?

January 27, 2016

Sometimes when we are drunk we feel that we become a better person. We think of doing many selfless activities and then we don't hesitate while thinking this way. When we come out of the stupor we realize the so-called-reality and we decide of not doing those same things that we had decided while we were drunk.

Have you noticed this... has this happened with you... and have you try to analyze why it happens so...

ok lets do some analysis here - drinking definitely provides a lot of freedom. it dilutes our identity and ego... and thats why we feel so happy, relaxed and blissful. because the ego is a heavy burden we carry with us all the time and drinking suddenly lifts this heavy weight from us... and so we feel so light.

without this ego - we think, feel and act like a very saintly person.... but

when the effect of alochol is gone, the ego reappears, the burden is again felt - and so it again changes our thought. we no more agree to do all the things that we decided when we were drunk.

the important question is this: the effect that alcohol has to our mind - can we not consciously rise to that level without drinking?

i think - and i am thinking without getting drunk of course - that there should be a way... actually there might be many ways... what are these different ways i am not sure right now - but to my mind comes one particular way - which is by listening to one's inner conscience and then following it... lets discuss that. 

ofcourse this conscious way of raising one to that high level - is not so easy... one has to jump into darkness with faith in this process... the process is pretty simple and here it is:  everyone knows the truth in his heart - what's right and what's wrong. that can also be termed as the voice of inner conscience - which everyone can hear. just close your eyes and without getting biased - ask yourself - what is the correct action you need to take in a particular situation. For example if you have taken money from someone - and who might have forgotten about it - should you not proactively return his or her money? when we ask such a question with utmost seriousness to our own self - we will definitely get the answer... and once we get the answer - blindly commit yourself to doing it irrespective of whatever immediate loss it might bring to your life. it's just an experiment - you just do it and observe keenly how your life unfolds...

the immediate losses are not important here - we are talking in terms of long term results - 10 years down the line, 20 years down the line and so on...

then one more situation comes in life - and similarly you ask yourself without any bias - and you wait for an answer from the conscience. what does it say? and then you control your action accordingly - totally in synchronous with your inner voice...

if one keeps acting in this way in life and then checks oneself - what he lost and what he gained as a result... i think the gains will be far far more than the losses... Dear reader, don't take my word - do it and find out please. your life is your laboratory and you are the scientist to perform the tests...


there are two possible outcomes - 1. you will come to the conclusion that this doesn't work - listening to inner conscience is actually causing you to lose more in life and causing more problems.   2. you will realize this is actually working and you are gaining more than you are possibly losing.

my experience is that it's always the 2nd outcome that happens as a result of acting based on direction from your inner conscience. its always more advantage, more benefits, more pluses - big big pluses - i tend to have better health, more peace of mind, better respect among people and so on... as a result of this my own conviction and desire to follow same path of right action keeps increasing...

i therefore can conclude that i don't need to get drunk - to think like a good saintly person and come to correct decisions... i can actually more consciously do the right thing by being more receptive to my own conscience.

of course alcohol tends to blur that opaque barier between me and my conscience and i have seen it elevating my thoughts...

but alcohol give me something as a short-cut for which i haven't earned that position. and as it happens with short-cut-approaches - they come with their own side-effects. Because an external stimulus elevates my thinking level to a good height and which i haven't earned - so this heightened state of pleasantness is short-lived. once the effect of alcohol is gone - i fall from the height and remain in the lower state... now in order to go again to that higher state - i again need one more shot... slowly i might lose the ability to be a better person without the help of an external stimulus. this is a wrong approach and not a very good solution.

you will all agree - our hard approach of : by listening to one's inner conscience and then following it... is a much better approach. in my native language, it's like - sastha, sundar, majbuth (cheap, goodlooking, strong). it's like a banyan tree - which takes time to grow - but it grows strong with firm root and strong branches.

while drinking you might get the pleasure of flying - but you will fly without wings - because the external stimulus is potent and it is carrying you and making you float... once the effect is gone - you go through a free fall. the more difficult way: by listening to inner conscience and then following it... is actually a gradual process of experimentation with life. it installs wings in you which are not so effective in the beginning... you will flap those nascent wings and there will be frustration and you will complain - you will take a shot of whisky and fly without any problem... but if you are consistent and perseverant... if you have the magical quality of tenacity - you will hang in there and keep practising with difficulty - then one day your wings will be strong and when suddenly you find yourself helpless in mid-air - your wings will help you to land softly on ground.

That's when you will have the necessary experience to tackle the hard things in life with soft dexterity. till then you should keep listening to your inner conscience and keep following it... till you arrive at the truth!

it's just like learning to type - initially it will be so difficult to place the right finger at the appropriate keys - you will be so much tempted to just use the finger that comes naturally instead of using the correct fingers. it's so hard to go through this rigorous training in the beginning... but once you have become an expert typist you just finish a big chunk of sentence effortlessly - imagine the pleasure... it's all the same in life also - the whole life should be a training and once you become an expert - you will know the difference yourself.

you needn't think about big things... you should start with small things - for example if you are yet to return 2 thousand rs. to a friend of yours... and who seems to have forgotten - start there - return the money irrespective of whether he is a rich or a poor guy ... and feel the peace of mind and observe the acknowledgement and respect your friend returns you for your action... start with small things like this and keep expanding into bigger things... slowly and steadily.

that's the practical way to proceed - otherwise in the very beginning - when you think of a very big thing - you will feel hopeless and will not have the necessary impetus to continue in this path.  

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