Use a cushion, avoid the scars

November 17, 2014

An odd member in a whatsapp group suddenly started typing weird sentences... loathful, sarcastic, funny and abusive and then what not...

I called this guy and said, "you abuse me and throw whatever you desire towards me - i am like Sunny - who would play the slow spins in net with utmost dexterity and the next moment would face the Caribbean pace without the helmet."

So this guy responded with an excitement that was hard to contain. SORRY was what he said first and then we 2 old friends started gossiping and talking about the beautiful old days... when i suddenly changed topic -

I opened up a bit more and expressed about the problem we had at hand - i said these words - "When there are 40 different people in a group - we have to take care of each one's sentiments and feelings - isn't it? There are certain words which might be acceptable to some but hurt someone else. There might be some statement that would infuriate another member in a group... so it's important to choose words wisely and avoid any kind of unpleasantness..."

That night before we finally bid each other good bye, I could feel an assurance that he would never repeat the same type of statements again.

Now let me narrate one more incident. This is a little unrelated of course to the previous one of course... while i was cleaning the speaker grill of my music system, i noticed some scars on the beautiful black grills. Reflection from the big glass windows helped me spot the conspicuous scars... i got a little dejected nonetheless as i am very attached to these tiny materialistic belongings.

Generally while cleaning I place my fingers between the speakers and the vacuum rod- but on one of the previous occasions i had missed. Well... that was my mistake - those fingers acted as a cushion protecting the speaker grills and their absence meant that the aluminium rod was too harsh on the speakers. 

Scars on an object - that is still okay... BUT what about scars we sometimes leave on relationships... just because we never care to place that cushion between our tongues and the recipients' ears? However true and honest our statements might be, we should try to present them in a way that we not only get ourselves heard and make our points clear but also don't end up hurting someone.

I haven't been good at it, you see, and I have made my more than fair share of mistakes. However I am still learning and I am getting better - though sometimes improvement can be so gradual that it's difficult to be aware of the progress... 

I saw a TV program the other day on climate change and someone was trying to make this point about SLOW CHANGE of climate and this guy said something that I really liked: Well you don't go to bed middle aged and then get up being old. These changes are so gradual that you don't notice them.

Coming back to scars on object versus scars on relationships, I just remembered a facebook-shared clip of Satyameva Jayate the other day: Two tearful parents were seated in the show and Amir Khan was hosting it. As the parents narrated their sad story this is what I could make out... Their son had gone out somewhere on a two-wheeler and he happened to collide with some new motorcycle. This created a few scars on the new motorcycle and the owner got pissed off to such an extent that he started beating up this poor little guy violently.

Sometimes anger and violence really take bad and unexpected turns and which can result in utmost disasters. And this incident, unfortunately had ended in such an unfortunate disaster...

Sometimes scars that cannot be seen are more painful because they can't be erased.


In this virtual world, TIME that we kill is real

November 11, 2014

Today we see everyone digging into their smartphones, laugingh, smiling and reacting to posts... busy typing and waiting for response.

The world that you and I are in today has become virtual. The real world has ceased to be important. 

But the time that you and me are going through continuously is the same real time and there is no concept of virtual reality here.

Time that we lose is real. Even the richest person in the world won't be able to buy years from a poor  young villager. Everyone's quota is preordained by a superior intelligence. 

Question is - why then we keep wasting precious time?

I think the reason is that we don't value time the way we value paper currency.

Time is actually more precious than money... A nonrenewable resource, which once consumed will never come back. Money can be earned once more.

In fact time is  so powerful that it will consume man one day! Sending him into a coffin deep down mud and gravel...  that will lie still in the eternal realm of silence. Or... that will reduce him to ash and smoke. 

It's important to respect time because the clock just keeps ticking.


November 6, 2014

I was coming home after meeting one of my cousin brothers. 

So long as I didn't know the way - i was listening to the gps and it was guiding me like a charm. In my right hand i was holding it tight while I kept pedaling. Suddenly  at one point i realized that i knew the way to home from there . And so i ignored the gps as i started taking my own path now. 

Each time my path deviated from the gps's path the gps would do a re-route and then again announce the same in the same humble tone. 

It is then i realized - that even in life we should follow this same principle of re-routing.

When in the work place a junior doesn't listen to your instructions, simply re-route. In other words, without getting flustered, just provide him with a new set of instructions and options in a humble tone. I don't claim to be practicing the same and have my own limitations. But I have somehow started believing that this approach is the best that you can think of when someone doesn't listen to you.

At home, how many times your own kid has refused to listen to what you say? And your wife would not listen at all, isn't it !!! Again, the best thing that you possibly can do is re-route!


Will you take all your money to your grave?

November 5, 2014

No I won't, because that won't be needed.

I have heard this quite often - what use is of money? So much attachment? Are you going to take all money with you to the other world after death? 

Think it in this way - 

You are going through a dark narrow path through a jungle and you have bright TORCH in your hand. The torch helps you to find the right path, avoid obstacles like rocks and pebbles, helps spot dangerous reptiles in the woods and prevents you from being bitten, helps you find an occasional fruit in the tree that you tear off from the branch and eat and you get recharged and you move on..... 

Until.... you are at your destination, your home. After you reach the destination you don't need the torch anymore. It was the job of the TORCH LIGHT to enable you to have a safe and comfortable journey and reach home.

Similarly a good amount of bank balance has no other job but to offer you a safe and comfortable journey - the journey of life.

When a person dies - he leaves a lot of money in bank - and so what use was that to him when he couldn't enjoy all that? Many people ask this question.

Now ask the same question to the man with the torch- he reached his destination (home) and after that there was a lot more battery left in the torch - so he having the torch was useless?

Does that sound logical?


November 3, 2014

Starting today I have decided to start a blog for vocabulary. It will be like vocabulary1, vocabulary2 and so on... all these to be placed in category "vocabulary"

  1. Insidious - adj. operating or proceeding in an inconspicuous or seemingly harmless way but actually with grave effect (example sentence: Although not quite as dramatic, other touchscreen-oriented health hazards are even more insidious because most people aren't even aware that they exist. The potential for injury from using touchscreens will only go up as more people use smartphones and tablets, especially if Microsoft's Windows 8 effort succeeds in popularizing touchscreen PCs and laptops.)
  2. Mala fide - adj. something undertaken in bad faith; unreal or not genuine 
    try to understand mala fide by analyzing the opposite word - bona fide:undertaken in good faith; real or genuine
    if something or someone is bona fide they are real or geuine. 
    another example: we are happy to donate to bona fide NGO's who work for the poor.
    Evict- verb. to expel a tenant from property by process of law etc
    example sentence: if someone is evicted from a place he was living, then he would have broken some law or contract of agreement and therefore he was forced to leave the accomodation
    Abdicate - v. to renounce power or throne officially
    The King was going to abdicate to marry an Australian divorcee.mala fide
  3. visceral - adj. characterized by intuition or instinct rather than intellect. example sentence: Alec felt an almost visceral protectiveness towards her as she placed the bowl before him. Murray, Stephen DEATH AND TRANSFIGURATION
    Brandish - verb. to wave or flourish (a weapon) in a triumphant, threatening, or ostentatious way. also word can be used as noun. example sentence - Some British groups opted for a low-key approach, with concealed pistols, while others made their men brandish submachine guns. TIMES, SUNDAY TIMES (2004)
    visceral, brandishing, puritanical, usurp, bludgeon, flounder, fulminating, draconian, proffering, moralistic, intemperate

How to get url of image from Facebook Image

November 2, 2014

It's little tricky.

A few days ago i managed to do this but today when i tried once more i couldn't. 

Well I deviced a trick here - just give it a try - if it works good...

First the constant part - 

That part of the url is the constant part. Now we will work on the remaining part of the url of the image. Click on the image and do an inspect element. Copy the image part of the html script in a note pad and then write down the url below. An example shown below - 

<img class="spotlight" alt="" aria-describedby="fbPhotosSnowliftCaption" aria-busy="false" src=";oe=54AA2BFD" style="width: 520px; height: 381px;">

from here copy this part only - >

now from the above url replace this parth {} with the constant part. Resultant url should be like this - 


this actually works. Don't know how long this will work as the developers keep working on the codes ... but for now it works and so the grin in my face.

A little later i noticed this - if you remove /v from {}... the resultant url works as well, but although the image is smaller:

Saturday Sketch 13 - Childhood Fantasy with Toy Vehicles - 2

November 2, 2014

Childhood Fantasy with Toy Vehicles

Childhood Fantasy with Toy Vehicles

Childhood Fantasy with Toy Vehicles

Saturday Sketch 12

October 12, 2014

Fake vs Real

October 8, 2014

It has been now 1 years, 6 months, and 18 days in Netherlands. 567 Days.

Having come this far from home has given me a good exposure of a lot of things. I like to observe - notice in detail and I love to analyse. It gives good food for thought. Someone well said - "you are what you are because of the food you eat and the thoughts you think". Someone might say why do you see bad and negative things in others? My answer to them would be - I like to see these bad qualities and analyze them and make sure I don't implement them. That's how other's bad qualities help me.

Here I have seen a lot of our own people copy foreign life style - eating with spoon and fork, drinking wine, savoring beef and so on... Those were not part of our culture - I have seen people following them here and then giving good lip-service about the way things ought to be. Very big lectures. Upon coming very close to some - I have seen that these people themselves don't follow what they preach. They hide behind a facade.

I have seen others put on a accentuated tone in the way the speak over phone. It looks rather artificial. There are many who won't tell the truth. 

There are many who take money from you and won't return. I don't know why... but it's not that they forget... they simply would not utter a word if you don't remind them. And you feel embarrassed to ask for YOUR OWN MONEY back! I simply can't fathom the cause of such hypocrisy... they earn so much and why don't they return such a meager amount they owe someone.  

I can probably say this: it's not how fat your pay check is that will shape your character. Character comes from your lineage primarily and also to some extent from your own proactive endeavors to learn and know truth. Character is not easy and very few people have it.

If you are fake you won't have the energy to keep doing a good job for a long period of time. Fake people will soon run out of gas...  Their energy is spent in negative things - so they actually don't have enough motivation to pursue something good and constructive. Fake people will try to adapt the same fake policies while dealing with their spouses, kids and parents and ultimately they end up with fucked up lives. 

The honest and typically hindi coined word - SIDHA is a different category. You would have known a sarcastic remark every now and then from a friend - YE BAHUT SIDHA HAI. DIL KA BHOLA HAI! Beware guys! Being Sidha is a very good quality and the normal practice of looking down upon this quality is incorrect. So if you are SIDHA, feel proud and hold your head high. 

The sidha category knows that there is only one way to choose. the right way. People belonging to this club succeed and prosper in their career as well as personal lives. One who is honest, truthful and has a genuine eagerness to improve benefits from an unending flow of motivation. This is just like the principle of inertia - or the newton's 1st law of motion -which states that an object in motion continues to be in motion and an object in rest continues to be in rest unless and until forced by an external force to alter its state of rest or motion. If the path is friction-less - then the motion will not need any push. Truth and honesty creates this friction-less path enabling one to continue to repeat his good and hard work for long period of time. Because it doesn't create any resistance in his body or mind. As the hard effort empowers him to work even harder and keep maintaining the momentum. 

Fake will fall apart because of innumerable resistances but real will keep moving on a friction-less track. Fake can dazzle temporarily, while real might remain invisible initially but somehow will make a serious mark in the long run.

Birds of same feather flock together. That's why you will see fakes sit together to discuss, enjoy, have lunch, gossip and waste time. A fake can't come and sit with a real person. It's like oil and water which won't mix together. 

Real gels well with only real. And a real person will have less friends as fakes are many but good character is rare.


Childhood fantasy with toy vehicles

October 2, 2014


How to make a boring job interesting

September 29, 2014

One day my friend asked me - why do you get pleasure when you sketch or paint? I struggled to answer actually - or rather i should say i couldn't give the exact answer.

I had replied - 'It's the process of creativity that gives me happiness.'

He was not satisfied. He wanted a rather direct and 'to-the-point' answer. So he said, "it is that moment when you sketch that mind is free of all thoughts as you remain absorbed in that sketching. That gives the happiness."

As i reflected on it - i thought that was true.

what else give us similar happiness?  Think about it.... Actually it can be any work that you have at hand. Any work. Isn't it?

Only thing is you shouldn't be worried about other thoughts like the result of that work, or something else. A single pointed mind bereft of any kind of thought gives happiness.

But it's difficult to make every work such source of pleasure - because most often the job at hand is not interesting and therefore millions of thoughts bombard our mind. However it's easy to have such sublime one-pointed concentration in something we love to do. Nicely coined in the words of Confucius- "Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life"

Also it's sometimes difficult to change to a job that we love or are passionate about. When we can't change the job that bores us, we need to somehow make the mundane or not-so-interesting work interesting. How to do that?

A lot of times innovation and thinking out of the box and making something new - can make a boring-work interesting.

For example if you do some routine job daily and you find no charm in the boring repetitive job - why not develop an automation script and do get the job done automatically. You can then monitor how the script is performing this magic and what are the shortcomings which can be further fine-tuned.

This approach is thinking out-of-the-box and might add that missing spark in the mundane job.

Saturday Sketch 11 - Ruins of Heidelberg Castle

September 28, 2014

Ruins of Heidelberg Castle


The silence of Lake Titisee

September 26, 2014

The silence of Titisee Lake

Standing on the bank, I fix my gaze at you
I feel a silence that's so deep
hidden underneath clear water
stories untold that were always there

I know you've been here for a long time
staring into empty sky and distant mountains
you never got any vent to reveal
no one ever bothered to ask how you feel...

I withdraw and then fix my gaze again
Now I see experience of a long life
oozing out on to beautiful sparkling water
caressed by drizzle and soothing breeze

so many ducks swim gleefully
fish appear and then dive inside
Can they ever penetrate and fathom?
A silence so deep, fraught with wisdom

So I sit alone, close my eyes and meditate
I can hear the subtle whispers of silence
dsclosing an infinite treasure of wisdom
refreshing and uplifting right at the bottom


Ode to the Rhine Falls

September 25, 2014

When the ground beneath had disappeared
you could have complained and stopped

You chose to fall with courage and hope
creating this miracle out of no where

enabling the sun to find its true color
in the droplets gracefully scattered

Mighty rocks that deter your motion
Succumb to your will and majestic roar

Big mountains and large trees look on...
in awe at your beauty, as you move on


Driving through Black Forest

September 24, 2014

1st day (Uithoorn -> Mannheim )

This time we set out to explore black forest in a car. We left Netherlands at around 7 PM and headed towards Mannheim in Germany. The distance was around 500 km. We reached Park inn hotel in Mannheim at around 1.30 am.

2nd day (Mannheim ->Heidelberg Castle ->Baden Baden -> Freudenstadt -> Triberg Waterfalls -> Rötenbach (Friedenweiler))

Next day, 20.sep.2014 morning, we left for Heidelberg Castle. We were impressed with the beautiful views along side the river near the castle. The car-parking is so easy to find here and in this same car parking builiding, in the ground fall there are ticket counters for the cable operated trains that takes one to the castle, high up in the mountain. We got into the cable train and were on our way up... 

The castle ruins...

View of adjoining river-area from top of castle

 After this we headed towards Baden Baden and took the route from Baden Baden to Freudenstadt.  This route is awesome with beautiful views on both sides. Sometimes it can really get dark even in broad day sunlight...

We then headed towards Triberg.

We somehow managed to experience the calm and quiet Triberg waterfall in the darkness of the late evening. As it was getting darker so couldn't get good photos of the waterfall. The descent was a long way and so decided not to go all the way down.

Sat there on a bench and enjoyed the soothing sound of the gentle stream. 

We quickly headed towards the hotel. After an eventful day we settled for some rest in Landgasthof Rössle in Rotenbach.

3rd day (Rötenbach (Friedenweiler) ->Rhine Falls ->Titisee Lake ->Uithoorn)

Next day we were helped by a rather generous receptionist who urged us to also visit the Rhine Falls. So though this was not within out planned itinerary we decided to follow her advise and drove towards Switzerland Border.

Rhine Falls was not far from the hotel and it took us approximately 1 and a half hour to reach here. We took tickets (6 euro per person - not including boating) ; got busy exploring the gorgeous and mighty Rhine Falls from different spots. 

The boat ride is the best way to witness Rheinfall in her true nature. Here goes the video - 

After Rheinfall, we returned back Germay to see Titisse Lake. It was evening and it was drizzling. The drive through black forest in the light drizzle was enchanting. 

Titisee Lake is situated in the southern Black Forest in Baden-Württemberg. It is at a height of 850m and a natural reserve of drinking water. Against the background of Feldberg mountains, it offers stunning views. Light drizzle in the lake made it even more beautiful.

Video of the lake...

We purchased a cuckoo clock here and then headed for a long and tiresome journey towards Netherlands. It was raining continuously and the scenery on both sides of the road was breathtaking... 

We finally reached home in uithoorn at 04:00 AM. Bade our dear friend, Manik good bye - who had to drive another 50 kms before he could finally rest. 

It was a nice experience, however there were challenges as well like finding the correct road on the gps while the car is speeding above 100 kph, identifying the different speed limits in different sections of highways, the pain of nausea and vomiting in twists and turns of mountains and hills and dealing with that especially when you are with kids... and so on.... But overall it went well and as I write this blog - I am still overwhelmed by the Beauty of Mother Nature we witnessed. It is something to be cherished for a long time

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The heartbeat...

September 8, 2014

It's 9:20 PM and I just realized that I had forgotten my 2 sets of push-ups in evening. I didn't bother about the time. Straightaway, I started exerting against the floor and before the guilt feeling could locate me, I was done with the 2 sets of push ups. I felt happy and relieved. 

Something that we do each day should be done repeatedly and never missed for any day. Breaking a continuity is easy but it is the seed that grows into a big irritating tree of inconsistency and then it becomes so difficult to uproot.

Having said that, now I will go to brush, that I completed my dinner. I have been continuously brushing after dinner, for a few days now. Let's see how many days I can continue.

It's so easy to skip your bath during weekend. You simply lie on your couch like a pig and keep hogging and sleeping. You means I... I am talking about myself - But then I also realized - during the days I go to work, I am so diligent in offering morning prayers, taking bath and so on- but what happens during weekends - why do I pull the plug on these activities. So I thought - why not bring these activities under awareness of being part of a set of activities that I do regularly. In other words - I need a mechanism which will trigger me that something is wrong the moment I skip something.

An activity that is repeatedly performed has a heart beat. It may be 1 day, 12 hours, a week or a fort-night - the frequency interval may be more or less, but the heartbeat is present nevertheless. And heartbeat is life. Pulling the plug off this heartbeat is death - while continuing the heartbeat means continuing to live. 

A habit is nothing but this tendency to keep doing something that one does. Good habits yield good results and bad habits yield bad results. Simple calculation but our mind fails to act on this - because we make everything complicated.

That's all for the day today - I have to go and brush my teeth now. 

Bye and sweet dreams.

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How fleeting life can be!

September 4, 2014

He had a sound technical knowledge.

He was well behaved, gentle, polite and a pleasant personality.

He was very religious and would never miss his Friday Prayers.

He would talk less and only when it was required.

Whenever there used to be an escalation in work or an urgent issue needing to be solved, he was the guy found talking more and taking the lead role. 

While he was about to board his flight from Netherlands to India, he bade me good bye and I wished him luck.

Then he got married and then he switched job.... somehow after that I lost track of him...

A couple of days back - a bell rung in my mind and got curious to know about him - I sent a casual mail... querying about state of things at his end and his new life and new job.

Yesterday he had replied - life is good, things are all fine - he thanked me for remembering him.

Today I got the news of his death. He is no more in this mortal world!!!

It left me in a state of shock so severe that I wasn't quite able to come to terms with reality. Time seemed to stop and I remained suspended - as if in vacuum till it slowly and steadily sunk in. 

I couldn't find any logic, any reason or any explanation - strange are the ways of the Architect of the universe. Only if I could fathom His Wishes. RIP, my friend. May God bless your soul!

Netherlands - Day531

September 4, 2014

It is 531 days Or 1 year, 5 months, 13 days.

It's been long time now here in Netherlands and now the time has come to finally book the return tickets to India. 

The mind is in a confused state and certainly not relishing the state of transition. It's a period of time when we can't concentrate on anything properly and the motivation to do things is simply not there - whether it is going to work or taking Romir to school or buying something. We are in a state of suspension now - when we simply feel like going back and starting all over again. Life has to move on...

The exposure that we got from our stay in Netherlands is something worthwhile. The new experience of living in a nice, clean and advanced European country is something we will cherish for a long time to come. 

That which touched our hearts emotionally is the Dutch Life and the cleanliness we have seen in this country. Cleanliness is an inherent property in each of these people. Adding to that their sense of beauty, politeness and gentleness and of-course, integrity - so much to learn from them. 

There is also a regret, as my tenure here is coming to an end - that is, I didn't take the pain to learn Dutch. If I could start it all over again, I would have surely joined classes for learning Dutch. That didn't happen sadly. 

One of the things that touched me most is the cycle tracks that exist in this country. They are mind-blowing. Fabulous. The first thing that one should do is buy a cycle after coming to this place and simply roam this beautiful country on the beautiful cycle tracks that go through scenic forests and lakes. It's a bliss to cycle in this country. I feel good about the decision of purchasing a cycle as soon as I landed here. From then on cycle has taken me to work and brought me home from work - with the exception of the rainy days. 

Yes, it rains a lot here. Most of the time - drizzling. But I love rain and so no complaints... 

We didn't see the best of the winter seasons... There was no snow during last winter. So we missed the snow! One of our fantasies was to walk on the upper coating of the lake when it turns into ice. But last winter was simply not that cold. 

A few things that I would like to recommend to people who are coming here for short or long term is - don't miss the museums in Netherlands. After all this is the land of Van Gogh. Among good museums are the cobra museums, stedjelijk museum, Van Gogh Museum and Rijk Museum. The last 3 are all situated in Museumplein. Come to museumplein early and visit one of the museums and then lie back lazily in the open huge green space infront of Rijk Museum. This place is lovely. Infact we have loved museumplein a lot and went to this place many times. Okay now a good tip - to visit the museums - it's better to take a museum card - which will cost around 60 euro approx. But definitely worth it - the beauty of this card is you can visit a particular museum as many times as you want within a year. And you can visit all the important museums more than once within a year. Also along with the museums one should also not miss Anne Frank's House. It's worth going to this place. 

Dam Square is another place which you can visit and enjoy the architecture of the buildings around. 

I would also like to advise those who are coming to stay here or who are already staying here to take a membership of bibliothek ( library) . It's only 55 -60 euro approximately for a month and the books and cds, dvds you get to take home are too good. If you have a kid, then you can get to bring childrens books from libraries to your home. Small kids of this generation get bored very easily with anything you buy new - so it's better to take library membership and bring them new books than to keep buying for them. Of course children's books are very expensive. I think membership for small kids is free. 

There are plenty of Moroccan, Indian and Pakistani Shops here - so getting grocery for Indian food is never a problem. Cheap and nice dresses are available in stores of Primark in Hoofdorp. So one needn't get too many clothes from India while coming here. Now this goes to all ladies ... don't bring too much of salwar kameez or sarees - as the only thing you are going to wear here is western formal, genes and  Tshirts. 

I just happened to remember this - I have seen friends of mine very keen to visit new places and new countries in Europe - which of course is very nice and nothing wrong. But I would like to strongly advise all to be very careful with your belongings - bags, purse, money and particularly passport, resident cards - because lurking around tourist places will be agressive beggars and snatchers. My intention is not discourage from travelling but I am just keen to spread the message to be careful in tourist places. 

Also my personal preference is always to go to a place independently ( for example by Eurolines bus service), book a hotel there in advance - and stay there - roam there independently and then again come back to Netherlands. I don't like package tours. Recently I went to Paris and decided to go for Govinda Travels, as it seemed to work out rather cheap, but then very soon I started regretting my decision.  However this is my own personal view and based purely on my personal experience. 

That's all I can remember now. I had a lovely experience staying here in Netherlands and must say to all who are planning to come here for work assignments or study - this is a place which you will love a lot.

Many people I have seen have continued to stay here. Some of my experiences of places here are captured in these blogs. I hope you will like them...

My Blog on visit to Anne Frank's house is here.

This is about my visit to Cobra Museum.

This is my experience of long distance cycling in Netherlands. This also reveals the beautiful countryside of Netherlands.

This is about my visit to Dam Square. 

A Visit to Rotterdam


Silent Affirmation

September 2, 2014

I could hear the silence after storm
that penetrated inside so strong

Questions which rippled, finally answered
but the restlessness lingered on

sometimes it's only 'TIME' that can heal
When logic fails to reveal

Silence is heard from a thousand miles
VOICES - an irritation!

'DARKNESS' illuminates an entire world
while 'LIGHT' shields it all

At that moment, 'TRUTH' is revealed
Shadows of doubt recede

Need no proof, need no confirmation
so strong the silent affirmation


Repentance of a responsive conscience

August 28, 2014

Restless me stood there by the window
sun was ablaze, the atmosphere mellow

Remember being touched by a distant pain
broke my heart and stretched so hard

desperate thoughts and mindless words
deadly combination that lunged so fast

tearing through the distant clouds
landed suddenly creating chaos

i was so sure of the bitter outcome
yet i did it... Oh no!!! it's too late now

Numbness ensued and now i feel a void
very little sense of all that's inside

Guilt and shame only worsens with time
thoughts smeared with mud and grime

in these hours of sorrow i feel so lonely
my own silent shadows flickering only

stale mind strives to fetch new content...
One question keeps rising without consent - 

Why the hell did I get involved there...
where i had no business or none to care?



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